welp. I've been totally punkish lately. having an ongoing battle with my mind and heart... combatting any feeling my heart attempted to dispense if my mind wasn't in agreeance. I had to cut that shit out because I realized they will never be on the same page. So Im straddling between my selfish mind and my loving heart. Trying not to piss off the latter. Life's all about risks,anyway right? Jack Keourac said it best "It all ends in tears anyway."  .... so I might as well have fun with the cards that I'm dealt, and think about the sappy ending another time. New frame of mind. new shoes. Lets get it.